While downloading pictures, I found many that I didn’t take… and judging by the angle of them and what they were of, I knew who the perp was… Samara… and just about the time I’m ready to lay into her for taking my camera, again, I see this picture and I stopped…
The photo is from a few weeks ago…
It’s been sitting here…and I keep looking at it…
it’s slowly becoming one of my favorites…
Anyone who knows our family knows that Samara and I have a trying relationship… I love her to death, but there are days that she and I butt heads…
big time…
Many times, I find myself wondering where life will take her… her personality is one that if used properly, could take her very far and do much good in the world… but if used improperly, could be detrimental and take her far off the path that any parent wants for their child…
she’s smart… oh is she smart… smarter than me in so many ways…
she’s beautiful… one look at her and I wonder how that beauty will affect her growing up…
she’s the social butterfly…
and just this week I got a lesson in BFFs — what they were, how many you can have, and what makes a person qualified to be your BFF…
nothing scares her…
I’ve seen her pick up bugs, investigate dead mice, talk to people she doesn’t know, and take the lead….
everyone loves her every where we go… whether that be church, school, or even when we’re out and about running errands…
she’s a girly girl… loves make up and hair… and shoes…. my Lord, does that child love shoes!
She has confidence I would kill for….
and I tell many that she’s the kid I hated in high school…popular, smart, funny, athletic…
but the reality of it is?
i hated that kid in high school because I was jealous…
and in many ways, I think I’m jealous of my daughter…
But more so than anything, I pray that this child makes an impact on the world…because she can… she has the gifts and talents… and I want her to use them wisely…and not make the same mistakes that I did…
because she can…
i know she can…
i know that she and i will keep butting heads… we’re too much alike…
she and I are like my father and I were…
and I see the relationship that my father and I have today… and it’s not the one that I want to have with her…
but much like I have to work on the one with him, I have to work on the one with her…
slowly, i’m learning how to make things right with my dad…
see, i took that path that no parent wants for their child…
and they say history repeats itself…
but i’m hoping it won’t…at least not in this case…
so I pray that I have the strength, wisdom, and guidance to raise my mini-me…
and to make my dad proud….
because i think, for the first time in 30 years, i’m on the right path…
until next time…
Heather
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At the end of the day, what shines through from you is your love for her. It’s nearly blinding, it’s so bright in this post.
Raise a child in the way they should go and they will not depart from it.
Wow, I love how insightful you are. I’m sure that you are and always will be a great mom. I knew I should have worn waterproof mascara today!
Now that’s just downright……
Cool.
That brought tears to my eyes. I think the one thing you can do is pray, pray and pray
Sometimes I don’t know what else to do when it comes to my son and our relationship!
You are a great mom! You are honest and real and full of love.
Hey, Heather! I’m finally checking out your website. I tried on another day but it wouldn’t work (server issues or something or other).
Anyway, I liked this post. I love my girl, too, but we do butt heads as well and I often wonder how our relationship will go over the years.
Thanks for checking out my blog. I’ll be back!
I have a daughter like that (our oldest), and I’m going to tell you what I wish someone had told me: Get a copy of “Power of a Praying Parent” and read it and pray through it and keep it as your constant companion through these years.
I love this. Honest and real and full of love is right!! xo.
Oh how beautiful!!!
Great picture.
I know that BOTH my boys are like me in many ways.
The worst thing is that my six year old understands the concept of sarcasm.
I have no idea where he gets THAT. *rolls eyes*
Beautiful picture. Beautiful post!
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