What the Future Holds For Me…

2009 has, for the most part, been a really crappy year.  (Let me state that the boy is not included as part of the crappy year… he is pretty phenominal… and had made the year enjoyable.)

Now that I’ve covered my butt on that part…

There were just so many things that went on this year, all of which have been handled, and I am a better person because of it, that I just choose to chalk it up as a growing year.  Especially with this latest door closing.

Makes it sound a bit better than a crappy year, don’t you think?

But I have to be honest… I really have grown this year.  As a person.  As a mother.  As a girlfriend.  As a youth leader.  As an employee.  As a Christian.  All of those areas and more…

But I’m ready for 2009 to come to a close.  I have seven weeks left before that happens and to be honest?

I don’t know what the next seven weeks holds for me.  I know there will be changes.  I know there will be areas of uncertainty and while I have often asked God to just show me why things happen, I have come to the conclusion that if would be best if He didn’t.

Chances are, I couldn’t handle the picture that He would show me of the future.

I’ve accepted the fact that when He is ready to reveal the why, He will, and only at that time will I be ready to handle the why.

And there’s a peace that comes with that.

I can look at events that happened at the beginning of the year and when I asked, “Why, God?” if He would’ve shown me today and how it played into that, I would’ve freaked the heck out.

So keep it to yourself God.  I know there’s a reason and I’m cool with it.

Because I?

Really excited about what the future holds… even though I have NO CLUE what it is…

Just placing it all in your hands, knowing that You will guide me and in the end?

I’m going to be JUST fine…

Until next time…