Another Anniversary for Me…. this one is HUGE

All day, I’ve wanted to craft this post.  I attempted to think of how I could creatively talk about how important today is for me and yet, here I sit at almost 10 at night, and I’m no further than when I started…days ago.

So, my birthday was January 9th.

And then came my blogoversary on February 4th… which, coincidentally, was the first day I stepped into my church.

And then there’s today.

My spiritual Birthday.

I’m three years old.

I whispered to Pastor Man yesterday, after service, “so, it’s three years tomorrow.”

He smiled like a Cheshire cat and gave me a big hug.  I mention to our church grandma, our prayer warrior and she said, “i was watching you this morning and just thanking God for bringing you to us and I’ve loved seeing you grow over the past three years.”

But see the thing is?  Today?  I just don’t feel like I’ve come anywhere.  On so many levels, I feel like I did the morning I walked into my church for the very first time… asking the same questions now, that I was asking then.

Then, I was told the answers and couldn’t comprehend.

Now?  I know the answers and can’t comprehend.

But what I know is that I am only still here because of the grace of God.  I know that whatever happens to me is in His will and He has something bigger in store for me; something I can’t even imagine.

And even though I would love to see the outcome, I know that He isn’t ready to reveal it.

And so I wait.  I remind myself of these things.  And I try to be patient.  I try to cling to the hope.

But I always know…

that this?

Is only the world.  He’s gone ahead to prepare a place for me.

And it doesn’t matter what happens to me here, on earth.  Heaven will be worth it.

So I’ll keep my eyes and heart focused there.

Until next time…